2016

It has been a while...
Couldn't believe that I'm a Taylorian now.

Yea. I'm back from Korea after a year there. I learnt a lot and I am thankful for what I have now.

Life in Taylor's University isn't bad, yet, I miss my life in Korea so much. Whenever I face some difficulty, I will just doubt my decisions, whether I am doing the right choice or not.
One thing I can tell is that I am lucky enough to know so many nice people in Taylor's!
They are real good people!

Anyway, I am trying my best to get good result for every semester. Hopefully my hard work will be paid off and Korea, see you soon! :)

Simple little thing that I realized after I've been here.

Well...let's talk about daily life in Korea today.

This little card had became part of  my life in Korea...Yes. here is it~ T-Money!

Wanted to become a'real' Korean, you've to get this..HAHA..

Because their transportation is really convenient, so whenever we're planning to go out,we will just take the public transport.  

Can't live without this if you're planning to stay here! haha..

Secondly, I realized that I've been get used to check the weather before I'm going out.

I'll never do this when I'm in Malaysia. Maybe it's because Malaysia is a tropical country.

Korean will always check the weather before they're going out or the day before they plan to go out. So that they could prepared everything well.

And then, I love taking public transport here!

I'll never take public transport in my own country if only I've my own car or someone could pick me up.

 [ Sorry to say that. ]

Buses here in Seoul they've their own bus lane , I think this is the reason that made their services more efficiency and reliability. 

Buses here are punctual. 

Besides that, subway here provides great services as well. 

You can travel whichever area you feel like going. Just get off your station and there's it.Maybe some places you've to change the subway line,but overall, it's still convenient ! 

So, how I wish my own country have this kind of 'services'. It'll be really convenient for us who doesn't have a car license or even a car! 

Just a simple update~ 

End of semester 2 .

Have been here for half year. time flies right?
and finally, I've done with my semester 2 as well.
I feel sad because I know I'm gonna leave this beautiful city soon.
Feel so sad whenever think of I'm gonna separate with these bunch of people who are from different country!Still remember the first day we met..........;') innocence faces everywhere.(grin)
I learnt a lot during this half year trip in Seoul.
Independent is one of it..
I felt I was much more independent than before. at least, I could do something by my own.

Even though I don't feel like leaving, but yea. I've to go one day.
Feel so blessed to meet everyone of you here.
Thank you for bringing me so much of joy,so much of fun during classes.
I'm so thankful with what I have now . Thanks everyone! :')
I'll never forget these days here in SEOUL!
The most colourful life..

感触

来到了韩国生活领悟了很多..
有种说不出的感觉..
有时候我在想我的选择是否正确?
我很感激我父母给我的一切.
是他们帮我完成我的愿望..

来到了韩国 感觉很不可思议.
虽然我已经在这里已经4个月..
我知道梦 永远都是梦.
梦, 总有一天会醒.
我知道 当我梦醒时 就是时候为我的未来而打算..
我知道 我没可能一辈子停留在梦里.
该醒的时候就醒来吧..

我知道我会很不舍,不过梦始终还是梦..
梦过了也可总好过没有..
很感谢 缘分 把我们集中在一起.
认识的每一位 我永远都不会忘记.
在这几个月里 有你们在我一点都不孤独.
过完了这几个学期 当我们各自回国时 我们很可能不会再相聚.
所以说缘分很神奇..
我一定不会忘记我曾经在韩国疯狂过的日子  还有陪我疯狂的每一位！

Hello Seoul!

I'm finally back in Seoul !
Started my semester 2 .
Obviously, things are tougher compared to semester 1.

Everything is fine so far and I was homesick for MY after few weeks in Korea.
I shouldn't have gone back to MY during the holidays because it makes me hurt more.

Well, nothing special these days.
Everything is same as usual, go to class, eat,sleep,play.That's all.
As simple as that.
We only go out during weekend. Weekday is too lazy to go out. =P

Just a simple update.
Oh ya. We are going to the cultural class on this coming Thursday.
I'm looking forward to it! I guess we'll have lots of fun. hopefully.

感慨

My sem break is coming to an end. And just like that, another month has passed by.
I spent a really great time with my family, relatives and friends during this short holidays.
I feel so blessed..
So ya. I'm going back to my 'second home' on this coming Monday. Another semester starts and fighting! work hard, play hard!

不知不觉3个星期的假期已经到了尾声，这次回来马来西亚不止可以一家团聚而且还有机会和朋友们相聚. 实在是太好了!
回国之前所计划的事都差不多完成了. 想吃的都吃过，想见的人都见过，想做的事都做过.
回到去以后又是新的开始. 同样的目标,努力争取奖励金!

突然有种莫名的感慨. 几个月没见的爸爸消瘦了不少.
我爸为了新建的房子奔波了差不多一年的时间.  从策划到整间家建好.对，就是用了一年的时间.
一个人跑上跑下，买什么什么的,就连皮肤都给晒黑了.
不只是这样，我知道我爸妈为了这间房子承受了不少压力,例如精神上.
Physically and mentally tired.
难熬的日子总算也告了一段落. 他们是时候好好享受了.
只可惜，我们要出外留学，我知道他们会觉得很空虚.
I feel so sorry about that.

这几天因为哥哥生病了，爸爸妈妈也奔波了好几天.
就算我爸爸平时有多凶,说话有多大声,他也有体贴的一面.
今天我看见消瘦不少的他慢慢的把田鸡去骨以方便我哥吃. 这一幕我看了我觉得好心酸.
平时我们只怪他凶什么的,无可否认我爸是很疼我们的.
当他责骂我们时,为什么我们不想想他对我们的好?对我们的关心?
他唠叨,也不是为了我们. 他所做的一切都是为了我们.
我可以说，我爸在我心目中是全世界最好的爸爸.
所以，当他唠叨或责骂我时,我会体谅他.
돈많이있으면 아빠한테 차를사고줬어요. This is what I wanna do the most.
That's why I ask myself to study hard to acheive my goal!
I will try my best to earn more money in the future to give my parents a luxury life!

Weird feeling

Day 53 in Korea.
Everything is extremely fine.
Yet, I've such a weird feeling these days.
I find myself a little bit homesick,maybe this is very normal. But.......there's also 'word can't describe feeling'.
I don't know what am I talking about. Whatever.

I'm going back to Malaysia end of this month and I'll discuss with my parents about I'm gonna extend one more semester for my course,maybe..most probably. Lol!
I wanted to learn more.

Gosh!Just couldn't describe my feeling right now.
Kinda dilemma. I hate decision making.
This feeling seriously killed me! 

Day 49 in Seoul, Korea

I'm here in Korea for almost 50 days soon . Time flies right?
I enjoyed every single moment here because I know I'm gonna miss every single thing here!
I still can't believe that I stayed in Korea for more than one months.
I like this place a lot like seriously. yet, I feel like going back to Malaysia.*contradiction
Have no doubt that life here is a bit different with Malaysia. Maybe I prefer Malaysia life since I'm Malaysian! Lol

People might think that I'm here for fun? for kpop? For those people who think it that way, I wanted to tell you that you are damn wrong!
Yes. I admit that I love KPOP! but so what? I love kpop doesn't mean that I come here for fun!
You thought I wanted to waste my parents'money just like that? ridiculous!
You think that it's sooooooo easy to meet an artist here ? and don't forget I am a student here. I've no enough time for my revision , so where is my extra time for that? To be honest, how I wish I could meet them! Yet, I know I'm here for my studies and I'll only do these thing during my holidays if I really wanted to do so! I know what am I doing and I know what to do okay?
I think for people who study oversea they'll also enjoy their studies in others country.
Don't let me know you enjoy yourself all the time when you study abroad!
Don't tell me that you won't enjoy when you're studying abroad!
No one will trust you that you'll keeeeeep on studying even though you're in others country!
You will have the curiosity to know more about people's country. Don't you?
 Well. I'll prove it! I'll prove it to someone who look down on me, for those people who don't look good at this!
Work hard,play hard! As long as I know I'm doing the right thing. That's it.

Day 30 in Seoul, Korea

不知不觉我已经在首尔度过了一个月的时间.

虽然一个月说短不短说长不长，可是我觉得自己好像在这一瞬间内长大了不少。

突然发现自己的思想好像成熟了点。

我身边的朋友都是自己一个人离开自己那熟悉的国家而来到了一个完全对自己不熟悉的国家。

不同的语言，不同的文化，不同的生活方式。来到这里就要把自己当作当地人，尝试别人的生活。去了解别人的文化，别人的生活方式。最重要的是要把韩语学好。我也正在努力着。

不知道为什么来到这里感觉就像是梦。常常羡慕别人有机会到韩国留学。因为我以为我发梦才可以到韩国留学。虽然我可能在这里的时间不长，可是我已经很满足了。

在这一个月里除了学到了课本里的以外，我也学到了我们真的应该要勇敢追求自己的梦想。

我班上有很多来自各国的同学。他们都比我还大，甚至连大学都念完了的也有。他们有些是律师，酒店管理的也有，会计师也有，护士都有，甚至在日本留学过的都有。很奇怪吧 ？他们都可以有份很安定的工作了对吧？可是他们宁愿牺牲1年甚至更长的时间来到韩国留学，为了什么？就是要完成自己的梦想。做自己想要做的。他们为了自己的梦想而放下了高工资的工作，远道而来，我真的很佩服他们。从他们身上我学到了我一定要做自己喜欢的事情。为了完成自己的梦想而放弃某些事情可能是值得的。有得就有失。而且我放弃了某些事物到后来我可能可以得到更多。

在这一个月里，我了解到他们的文化，他们的生活方式。我觉得我很荣幸有这个机会体验别人的生活。19年里，从来都没有离开过自己的国家，现在我有机会到别人的国家过着与自己国家文化不同的国家，我觉得我真的很幸运。

我很感谢我父母给我机会到外闯。我学会了独立，学会了该追求自己想要做的事情 ，学会了课本上学不到的。我会珍惜我在这里的每一天，因为我知道当我回去我国的时候我一定会很想念这里的人，事，物 。所以我会好好的学习，好好的珍惜每一天。

还有，很感谢出现在我生活上的每一个人。我知道你们都是好人。

有你们的出现，我生活才会那么的多姿多彩。

Life in Seoul, Korea!

I'm here in Korea for about 3 weeks already!
I just couldn't describe my happiness here.
ya.. Time flies. I'm getting used to staying in Korea.
Life here is fun. Should I use the word 'fun'?
hmm. I think life here is pleasant..ya.
PLEASANT!
Even though I've to study very hard to catch up some homework but yea, I enjoyed a lot!
I'll miss this place for sure when the day I leave here!!

Never thought of I have a chance being a 'korean' here. half korean.
heh! I love this place so much and my campus is really big! I LIKE IT!
I made some new friends here, all are from different country.
That's kinda miraculous.
I'll enjoy my day here and study hard!Appreciate everything and everyday!

Go go GOAL!

I've never thought about it, I could study abroad in my dream country.

I've never thought about it, I'm going to my dream country again after one year.

This time, I travel there with a different 'character',not being a tourist but a student + tourist. [HAHA]

I feel very grateful! 

Thank you my parents who fully support me no matter what.

For those who support me ,thanks a lot and I really appreciate everything! 

Besides that, since nothing is perfect, of course there are some people who feel stupid about my choice. 

I appreciate your comments and suggestions,but then why not you just give me a try first then only you give me your advice? 

Yea. Even though you agreed with everything, don't your mind is thinking that's such a funny choice?

I know it. Most of you doesn't look good at this. 

I don't care anyway since my parents support me.

Now I realize, our thoughts are totally different as we are getting older.

There's what people said, times flies and people change. That's true.

I admit that I've no 'proper' dream , but at least, I'm trying to figure it out.

I hope this 'trip' would inspire me.

Final decision

After so long, I had finally made my final decision.
My mom suggested me and my sister to go to the same University since our age is only 2 years difference.
Since I had graduated from my Foundation, I don't even know what course should I major in, and now I had made up my mind like finally.

I could said that my dream have finally come true. To those who knows me well could guess where am I going to proceed my studies. People might think that's crazy or even such a waste, I don't care what you're thinking because YOU'RE NOT THE ONE WHO PAY FOR MY TUITION FEE! Every profession produces its own leading authority. So ya! Why on earth I've to listen to the -so called- people with experience?
Why don't I just follow my dream right?
Once I enter that U, I've to study extremely hard. I don't wanna let people to look down on me and I wanted to let them know what I choose is the right choice !
I hope its really could bring me a bright future! I don't hope,suppose to be I DON'T WANT to waste so much of my parents'money just like that, without any reciprocation.
The most important thing should be, I wanted to do well to let everybody knows that what I choose to do is not a waste.

F for future

I think this is the only place that I could pour my heart out.
I was so freaking lost these days. The more options I have, the more confused.
I'm turning 20 this year and my life is still that....lifeless.
People happy sweet 19 or 20,  what about me?
All I could blame is myself. I hate myself being so timid all the time.
Thought I don't want to have a meaningful life? I really want it. Just like my elder sister. Because she is adventurous, she tried a lot of new thing, experienced different thing. That's what she made her life so meaningful and fulfilled. Honestly, I envy her. I admired her. Her life was filled with a lot of joy!
And yes, we can't compared . I didn't compare with her ,yet, I love the way she live.
I feel proud because I've a sister like that but how come I can't learn from her?
Her hard work, her adventurous, her courage.
I know everyone is different, everyone has their own characters and ability.
Maybe I was born to be like this? Timid, lack of confident and afraid of trying out new things!
Sometimes I really feel that I'm such a failure.
My goal is to earn a lot in the future to give my parents a better life. They do have a blissful life now but I wanted to give them a better one, a luxurious one!
4 of us, spent a lot of their money in our education.
What they built up since young, they give us all, without any complain.
So, I really hope I can pay them back one day.
I know I've to put one step forward to achieve my dream. Just because I'm not brave enough, I know I'll spoil my future with my own hand.
What should I do? What should I choose ?
-Korea HoWon University?
-Sabah Music Teacher Training?
-HELP Bachelor Degree in Psychology

Which one is the better one ?
Don't ask me which one is my preference . I'm enough for that.
If I know it, I'll not be here now.

Dream comes true?

I was so freaking disappointed about that.
I thought my dream really comes true this time, but it disappointed me once again.
I shouldn't blame anyone. It's my fate maybe..

Whenever I found my dream or whenever I found something that I really like to do, I will never get it.
I don't know why and I wonder why!
It's so hard for me to look at my own pathway, my so called 'dream' because I'm not good at studying, at all!

Since when I've such an absurd dream? Outsider might think that it's ridiculous, but for me, it's one of my dream.
People who know me well will know that I'm such a person who doesn't have any ambition. Yet, when I found mine, there'll not be any good news. What I said, "will not achieve". Yes. It might be hard to achieve, but why don't you just let me try?
One of my friend told me ,"I will accept failure but I'll never accept not trying".
Why give me such a hopeless hope all the time? Don't give me hope if it's followed by disappointment. It really hurts me more!
When the moment you know your dream is gonna come true and you lost it all of a sudden..That moment seriously could killed me! My heart break into pieces. Nobody will understand how I feel.
Words can't describe how disappointed I am, how sad I am.
Every cloud has a silver lining? I hope it's true.

But for now, I really fed up of everything. I rather live in my own world. At least, I'm happier.    

Dublin, Ireland!!

Hola! Feel free to update my blog.

Just to share my happiness here.

I went to Ireland last few weeks and the trip was awesome! 

I never dream of I will be going to Ireland someday. I just think of I wanted to visit Europe country like France or Italy but not Ireland. I feel thankful and lucky because I was able to visit Ireland in this age as I never imagine before. 

Well, I gained new experiences during this trip and it was really an eye opener trip.

First time travel to Europe country and the feeling was indescribable. That kind of joy,fun,happiness..

Ireland is a very nice country, as nice as the people there. They are friendly,good manners, gentle,humor and of course, there were a lot of handsome guys and pretty girls! hehe

Their country is very clean because they will clean the floor no matter what time is it. I saw quite a lot of times when they cleaned the floor.

And the thing  I admired the most is, people there can walk their dog no matter where they are even in the shopping mall. Just so great! 

And ya, the day I went back to Malaysia,my plane transited in France,Paris. I was like OMG! One of my favorite country that I wish to travel! Too bad that I'm not able to visit France this time, but I know I will visit there someday with my family! Wait for me, I will be back! 

Other than that, I learned their culture and lifestyle as well. It was a really great experience for me.

I feel grateful what God gives me in my life as well as what my parents give me. I appreciate a lot..

Even though I know someone might travel all around the world every single holiday or someone might not be travel often just because they cant afford, but I know, I'm one of the lucky girl who get an opportunity to travel, although I might travel once in a year. I still feel grateful.

Thank God for everything! 

And I wanted to earn more money in the future to give my parents a happier life and of course, I will bring them to travel all around the world! I hope I can do it! 

   

 

I did it!

Today is the result day again. I think I'll get heart attack every 3 months. so,ya.. I DID IT! I get a satisfied result this time. Not with flying colours (2 CR and 2 PS),but I'm really satisfied with it! My hard work paid off and I know it was really worth to sacrificed something before that. I sacrificed some family gathering as well as my favorite drama before that. No entertainment(TV shows)but only notes and books! I keep studying everyday before finals! I dont even accompany my cousin even though she came and visit me during her holiday because I know that my little sacrificed is able to come out with something that makes me happy! I can't believe I can pass my Psychology because I knew I had lost 10 marks for the last section! THANK GOD and also THANK my lecturer! I know it was because of their help! I finally have a good night sleep! I worried about my result since last 2 weeks which is the day I end of my final exam! and now, the hard time is over and I know I've to work hard for my degree even though I'm not sure what to take yet. LOL! So,I've to decide what to study in my future and work very very hard for my future! hwaiting!

Father's day 2013

Happy Daddy's Day to all the daddy around the world! I've a great celebration with my family today..:) 我发现我爸在这几年来消瘦了不少.可能是因为工作的影响，又有可能是为了我们，为我们操心每一件事。 再想想，我爸还为我们做了很多很多的牺牲。 有哪个爸爸像我爸一样那么细心？那么体贴？ 以前读书时期，我爸是最早起床的那一个，七早八早的为我们泡milo,一杯一杯的放在桌面，而且他还要记得哪个杯是谁的。一时还煮生熟蛋，一时还做我们最爱吃的鸡蛋面包便当拿去学校。我二年级的时候我爸还帮我穿校服，绑头发（对。我爸也做我妈那一份） 一时到了下课时间，我爸还拿便当给我们因为我们不喜欢吃食堂的食物。 我爸要工作，一时到了时间又要放下手头上的工作飞快的接我们放学。一时他迟了半小时我们还埋怨他为什么那么迟。我们以前根本没有想过他的感受。 当然，我爸也有他那严肃的一面。我知道他的严肃是为了我们好。 我好惭愧因为自从我上了中学以后成绩一落千丈。 我还记得我小学的时候弄我爸生气得不得了。每次我们去shopping,我爸一定买很多很多参考书给我，他每晚都会教我温习，可是以前的我总是不喜欢温习功课。所以有一次我气得我爸把所有的参考书给丢进垃圾桶里。(brand new books) [不过我有检回来。:P]我当时怕得哭了起来。说真的我真的很后悔。 我爸每晚都会抽时间出来教我读书，一字一句的解释给我听。他宁愿放弃他看电视节目的时间来陪我读书。 这么伟大的爸爸那里找啊! 又再想想，我爸真的真的为了我们放弃了很多东西。 有谁没有自己的dream car? 又有谁不想每年出国旅行？ 我爸为了省钱让我们读好的大学，放弃了他每一个自己想要的。 他的嘴里每次都说不要不要。其实心里很想要。就是他把我们放在第一位所以到如今都还没买自己的dream car. 他宁愿把他买dream car 的钱来供我们读书. 我爸宁愿买辆新车给我都不买给他自己。 我爸妈又有几年没出国旅行了？2009年去日本到现在。 在打这篇文章的时候，我的泪水打转着.. 我爸妈真的为了我们牺牲了不少！ 将来我一定一定会好好的报答你们。 等我赚到第一桶金，第一件事我不是买我想要的，而是买一辆车给我爸！ 我真的很幸运!dad,Thank you for everything! 我要什么有什么，真的真的知足了. My dad will never disappoint us. He will try to get what we want no matter what! I'm really lucky to have you..:) 아빠,감사합니다. 정말사랑해요!

Feb 2013

Hey there! It's my very first article in this month !
Oh yaaaaa! Time flies~~~ passes FREAKING fast!
To be honest, 2012 seriously is the best year for me..
Gone through a lot of things,but mostly is happy memories..
So ya! I hope this year will bring me more happiness!
What I want,What I get! * =P

Chinese New Year is gonna end soon!
One of the happy thing is Im able to meet with my secondary school friends..
Happy to see you guys seriously!
Let's come out to chit chat again! Im waiting for the day!

Eh? havent list out my wishlist yet..
So....Here you go!

Wishlist of 2013:
~KOREA.... again! yay! hopefully can visit again..
I miss winter, I miss MyongDong,I miss everything there!!!
~or TAIWAN perhaps?
~GOOD RESULT of course...

Ya..That's it! Im not that greedy actually..HAHA!
FIGHT FOR 2013! TO BRING ME A BETTER YEAR!

Dreamland

Yea..today is the day!
Im coming my dream land! hahaha!
Will update after I come back from there.. :)
see ya!

Friends...

Feel like writing my friends suddenly..
I've knew a lot of friends..which one will really treat me with their true heart ?
I know few of you who treat me with your true heart.. I know who are you! :)
Seriously, I feel glad to know ALL of you! THANK GOD!
Before that, I thought I'll be forever alone.. but now, my life is wonderful because of all of you!
You know who you are.. *weeee
I appreciate every moment with you guys..
Seriously.. =')