Weird feeling

Day 53 in Korea.
Everything is extremely fine.
Yet, I've such a weird feeling these days.
I find myself a little bit homesick,maybe this is very normal. But.......there's also 'word can't describe feeling'.
I don't know what am I talking about. Whatever.

I'm going back to Malaysia end of this month and I'll discuss with my parents about I'm gonna extend one more semester for my course,maybe..most probably. Lol!
I wanted to learn more.

Gosh!Just couldn't describe my feeling right now.
Kinda dilemma. I hate decision making.
This feeling seriously killed me! 

Day 49 in Seoul, Korea

I'm here in Korea for almost 50 days soon . Time flies right?
I enjoyed every single moment here because I know I'm gonna miss every single thing here!
I still can't believe that I stayed in Korea for more than one months.
I like this place a lot like seriously. yet, I feel like going back to Malaysia.*contradiction
Have no doubt that life here is a bit different with Malaysia. Maybe I prefer Malaysia life since I'm Malaysian! Lol

People might think that I'm here for fun? for kpop? For those people who think it that way, I wanted to tell you that you are damn wrong!
Yes. I admit that I love KPOP! but so what? I love kpop doesn't mean that I come here for fun!
You thought I wanted to waste my parents'money just like that? ridiculous!
You think that it's sooooooo easy to meet an artist here ? and don't forget I am a student here. I've no enough time for my revision , so where is my extra time for that? To be honest, how I wish I could meet them! Yet, I know I'm here for my studies and I'll only do these thing during my holidays if I really wanted to do so! I know what am I doing and I know what to do okay?
I think for people who study oversea they'll also enjoy their studies in others country.
Don't let me know you enjoy yourself all the time when you study abroad!
Don't tell me that you won't enjoy when you're studying abroad!
No one will trust you that you'll keeeeeep on studying even though you're in others country!
You will have the curiosity to know more about people's country. Don't you?
 Well. I'll prove it! I'll prove it to someone who look down on me, for those people who don't look good at this!
Work hard,play hard! As long as I know I'm doing the right thing. That's it.

Day 30 in Seoul, Korea

不知不觉我已经在首尔度过了一个月的时间.

虽然一个月说短不短说长不长，可是我觉得自己好像在这一瞬间内长大了不少。

突然发现自己的思想好像成熟了点。

我身边的朋友都是自己一个人离开自己那熟悉的国家而来到了一个完全对自己不熟悉的国家。

不同的语言，不同的文化，不同的生活方式。来到这里就要把自己当作当地人，尝试别人的生活。去了解别人的文化，别人的生活方式。最重要的是要把韩语学好。我也正在努力着。

不知道为什么来到这里感觉就像是梦。常常羡慕别人有机会到韩国留学。因为我以为我发梦才可以到韩国留学。虽然我可能在这里的时间不长，可是我已经很满足了。

在这一个月里除了学到了课本里的以外，我也学到了我们真的应该要勇敢追求自己的梦想。

我班上有很多来自各国的同学。他们都比我还大，甚至连大学都念完了的也有。他们有些是律师，酒店管理的也有，会计师也有，护士都有，甚至在日本留学过的都有。很奇怪吧 ？他们都可以有份很安定的工作了对吧？可是他们宁愿牺牲1年甚至更长的时间来到韩国留学，为了什么？就是要完成自己的梦想。做自己想要做的。他们为了自己的梦想而放下了高工资的工作，远道而来，我真的很佩服他们。从他们身上我学到了我一定要做自己喜欢的事情。为了完成自己的梦想而放弃某些事情可能是值得的。有得就有失。而且我放弃了某些事物到后来我可能可以得到更多。

在这一个月里，我了解到他们的文化，他们的生活方式。我觉得我很荣幸有这个机会体验别人的生活。19年里，从来都没有离开过自己的国家，现在我有机会到别人的国家过着与自己国家文化不同的国家，我觉得我真的很幸运。

我很感谢我父母给我机会到外闯。我学会了独立，学会了该追求自己想要做的事情 ，学会了课本上学不到的。我会珍惜我在这里的每一天，因为我知道当我回去我国的时候我一定会很想念这里的人，事，物 。所以我会好好的学习，好好的珍惜每一天。

还有，很感谢出现在我生活上的每一个人。我知道你们都是好人。

有你们的出现，我生活才会那么的多姿多彩。

Life in Seoul, Korea!

I'm here in Korea for about 3 weeks already!
I just couldn't describe my happiness here.
ya.. Time flies. I'm getting used to staying in Korea.
Life here is fun. Should I use the word 'fun'?
hmm. I think life here is pleasant..ya.
PLEASANT!
Even though I've to study very hard to catch up some homework but yea, I enjoyed a lot!
I'll miss this place for sure when the day I leave here!!

Never thought of I have a chance being a 'korean' here. half korean.
heh! I love this place so much and my campus is really big! I LIKE IT!
I made some new friends here, all are from different country.
That's kinda miraculous.
I'll enjoy my day here and study hard!Appreciate everything and everyday!

Go go GOAL!

I've never thought about it, I could study abroad in my dream country.

I've never thought about it, I'm going to my dream country again after one year.

This time, I travel there with a different 'character',not being a tourist but a student + tourist. [HAHA]

I feel very grateful! 

Thank you my parents who fully support me no matter what.

For those who support me ,thanks a lot and I really appreciate everything! 

Besides that, since nothing is perfect, of course there are some people who feel stupid about my choice. 

I appreciate your comments and suggestions,but then why not you just give me a try first then only you give me your advice? 

Yea. Even though you agreed with everything, don't your mind is thinking that's such a funny choice?

I know it. Most of you doesn't look good at this. 

I don't care anyway since my parents support me.

Now I realize, our thoughts are totally different as we are getting older.

There's what people said, times flies and people change. That's true.

I admit that I've no 'proper' dream , but at least, I'm trying to figure it out.

I hope this 'trip' would inspire me.

Final decision

After so long, I had finally made my final decision.
My mom suggested me and my sister to go to the same University since our age is only 2 years difference.
Since I had graduated from my Foundation, I don't even know what course should I major in, and now I had made up my mind like finally.

I could said that my dream have finally come true. To those who knows me well could guess where am I going to proceed my studies. People might think that's crazy or even such a waste, I don't care what you're thinking because YOU'RE NOT THE ONE WHO PAY FOR MY TUITION FEE! Every profession produces its own leading authority. So ya! Why on earth I've to listen to the -so called- people with experience?
Why don't I just follow my dream right?
Once I enter that U, I've to study extremely hard. I don't wanna let people to look down on me and I wanted to let them know what I choose is the right choice !
I hope its really could bring me a bright future! I don't hope,suppose to be I DON'T WANT to waste so much of my parents'money just like that, without any reciprocation.
The most important thing should be, I wanted to do well to let everybody knows that what I choose to do is not a waste.

F for future

I think this is the only place that I could pour my heart out.
I was so freaking lost these days. The more options I have, the more confused.
I'm turning 20 this year and my life is still that....lifeless.
People happy sweet 19 or 20,  what about me?
All I could blame is myself. I hate myself being so timid all the time.
Thought I don't want to have a meaningful life? I really want it. Just like my elder sister. Because she is adventurous, she tried a lot of new thing, experienced different thing. That's what she made her life so meaningful and fulfilled. Honestly, I envy her. I admired her. Her life was filled with a lot of joy!
And yes, we can't compared . I didn't compare with her ,yet, I love the way she live.
I feel proud because I've a sister like that but how come I can't learn from her?
Her hard work, her adventurous, her courage.
I know everyone is different, everyone has their own characters and ability.
Maybe I was born to be like this? Timid, lack of confident and afraid of trying out new things!
Sometimes I really feel that I'm such a failure.
My goal is to earn a lot in the future to give my parents a better life. They do have a blissful life now but I wanted to give them a better one, a luxurious one!
4 of us, spent a lot of their money in our education.
What they built up since young, they give us all, without any complain.
So, I really hope I can pay them back one day.
I know I've to put one step forward to achieve my dream. Just because I'm not brave enough, I know I'll spoil my future with my own hand.
What should I do? What should I choose ?
-Korea HoWon University?
-Sabah Music Teacher Training?
-HELP Bachelor Degree in Psychology

Which one is the better one ?
Don't ask me which one is my preference . I'm enough for that.
If I know it, I'll not be here now.